51. Piled On
2. Coagitating
My first picture of Roxanne. I still can't believe we are still married.
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192. The Cabal #1
One of these languishing months I set myself down in bed fully awake. Anxious and worried about everything, my mind was in quick despair. Doomscrolling was part of this process. In between these hazardous thoughts, the idea for this comic series was sprung. So, enjoy the fruits of my warped brain, and let me know in the comments if you like this! I have character arcs and many episodes lined up already from that one feverish night.
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151. Plagued
Generations before us had widespread worldly wars, warm and cold. Today feels like the anxious times we were told we were fortunate not to have. And there is some beauty to it. My friends and family are losing their jobs. My job has become incredibly stressful and demanding (I work in healthcare). Our parents and grandparents are at risk. This is some scary stuff. So it feels bad to make light of this situation. I am going to, but only because I am an idiot who doesn’t know how to cope with things. There is something about this current ambiance that I am responding well to. There’s something to knowing everyone is going through anxiety together that I find comfortable. I always feel guilty for feeling anxious with such a privileged life. I have met the love of my life, I’ve achieved some economic success, and I get to do the things I enjoy. Guilt about anxiety, begets anxiety, begets guilt, begets anxiety. Today, though, I can feel that we are all vibing similarly. And we are h
16. Hypo-critical
I’m a hypocrite for sure. I don’t know why I have never been invested in sports. My mom, dad some of my siblings really seem into it. I mean, there’s got to be something to them, so many people around the world embrace other people’s athleticism as if it was their own life goal! It’s one of those things I could never even fake.
11. Hot potato
Some of these memories are just waiting to be turned into nervous ticks.I feel like that shady guy still hasn't let go of some of my greatest hits. Like puking in a school play. Countless first dates. The time I thought I wanted to be a mouseketeer.
87. Making Room
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22. Skin Tone Deaf
Language and racial terms vary across the globe, making a complex matter even more complex. I love it though, the world would be boring otherwise.
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I don't need a reason to understand your depression and I don't have an answer on how to fix it.
ReplyDeleteI am here for you. I'll sit next to you silently and just keep you company. I'll write you and won't need an answer. I'll send you a quote or a photo every day.... just because I want to. Just know I see you. You don't need to pretend with me. I'll watch TV while you nap. I am here for you. All I ask is that you allow me to care for you, to love you and that you will not question why I am here for you.
It is what it is.
- Those are the answers to the question of "I'm a little depress" that matter the most. Just because my life is better than others doe snot diminished my pain.
PS: Of course I learn that thanks to therapy, medication and love.
The only thing that matters is getting help. There is help. Many kinds. Some will click better than others.
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